It's like, people always have a rough idea on who a person is based on how they act on the outside. There a lot of jokers in our class but its not always the case that their whole personality is joker-type. People usually have their serious and joking sides of themselves. It's just up to that person how much of both sides he shows it publicly.
Just to give you an example. You guys watch friends right? You know Chandler? I remember this episode where Phoebe was dating this psychologist who got on everyone's nerves because he could say exactly how the rest were inside. Then to Chandler, who always jokes around, he said that, "Are jokes always the way you cover up your insecurity?" Chandler was really freaked out man.
So it comes down to who we really are. Sometimes we're just afraid to let loose and be both sides of ourselves when we feel like it. There was once I was so confused and a bit depressed after the wake service of Markus and yet time won't stop. School still went on, it's like one thing after another, not giving me time to be in that state for long. I was torn apart from being the guy who always tried to make some jokes and the guy who's just quiet. And yet, I'm still both. That day was a really tough day but it turned out okay anyways.
Well, the basic thing is just like those corny things u see all the time, "BE YOURSELF." And always do your homework.
This emo-looking post doesn't sound like the alvin people usually know but I hope you guys don't mind :D
ANYWAYS I'm hungry. I'm gonna finish some left over chinese new year cookies now.
I saw that episode of Friends too!.. *sigh*.. Hope yr really okay dude.. I mean.. Mann.. I.. :s.. cried.. reading the other post.. :S... Take care okay?
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ReplyDeleteyeah..but i'm quite okay now..this thing happened a few weeks ago so yeah. but thanks jac :D
ReplyDeleteand just in case ur wondering i kinda deleted the other comment i made cos i made an error in my typing heh heh :P
ReplyDeleteI like Friends too. =)
ReplyDeleteAnd no matter how overstated it is I'm sorry for your loss.
And if it helps any, I've experienced it before too. Only I didn't get to go to the wake.
There was this time Jackie and I were in Melaka for Jackie's grandmother's birthday, and I met this guy [a relative of Jackie's] who asked for my number and Jackie's number. I'll admit that time I was pretty freaked out by him and so was Jackie, but few weeks later he got cancer. Jackie told me. It was pretty sudden. I mean, we just saw him few weeks ago. He was talking to us. At a grand party and everything.
Then he died. It wasn't pretty, I can tell you, because it was leukemia and chemotherapy is never a nice thing to watch. But you know. We do feel guilty about thinking that he was just a bit weird. And apparently he WAS a little weird, i.e. slightly autistic or something, I can't remember and it's not important now. But it's still a shock when you remember that this person so-and-so happened to be talking to you just a while ago.
So it's okay. This will be your emo post staple every once in a while. It happens to everyone =)
I think that everyone knows that there is more to people than the side you see [I mean, it's given right. ^^]